Lost in Limbo: Navigating Who You Are Between Your Past and Future
The Messy Middle
The first few weeks even before the experiment existed, I was in limbo. While I knew what I didn’t want to do and had a clear long-term goal, the in-between... well, not so much.
I knew I had to sit through discomfort regardless of what my choices would be. While I understood that in my mind and heart, constantly bringing awareness to every thought, reaction, and action to challenge whether it was real or a product of conditioning felt rather exhausting. Nevertheless, before the 99-Day Rewire was born, the desire and need to have a passion project or start fresh in a new career was already there.
I explain quite vividly in my previous blogs the science behind conditioning, fear, and discomfort and how our brains respond when faced with new experiences – they try to reconstruct the past, romanticising even unhappy times out of fear that you will lead it into the unknown. Add this uncertainty to a hyperachieving, hypervigilant, and neurodivergent brain (Hello! Haha) combined with never-ending rest, lack of structure, and suddenly the rabbit hole of the Default Mode Network takes over, disguised as a whole new world.
A world where ideas birth other ideas and where everything feels possible. I finally get the reference from Alice in Wonderland when she steps into a whole new magical world. I felt the same—and I enjoyed it greatly. I usually had structure and deadlines pull me out, but even the deadlines I had then were not enough.
I missed the bubble. I missed the daydreaming, the endless opportunities swirling in my mind. I reconnected with old practices, remembering a time and a side of me I long thought I had outgrown.
Shifting from Research to Experience
I have focused heavily on the science in the first few weeks, and some of you have said that while informative, the posts are a bit difficult to digest. I need to be honest—as part of the experiment, I genuinely needed to understand the topics on a deep level and from almost every angle. But today, I keep it personal, because as I found, the mind becomes rather predictable once the major processes are grasped.
Jumping Into Opportunities (And Crossing Some Off the List)
I have known my purpose for quite some time, and what is tricky about that is purpose can be fulfilled in many ways. While knowing it helps, it still leaves a lot of room for guessing.
So, I experimented. I jumped straight into testing what I believed would propel me toward my long-term goal. I had a lot of conversations, myriads of drafts over drafts, and deep trance meditations to figure out what steps to take.
✔ Coaching? I got a few calls booked without much advertising. After every call, it became clearer: I do not enjoy doing this. I could never do it full-time.
✔ Event organising? When the opportunity presented itself, I felt no excitement. The more I talked about it, the less aligned it seemed.
✔ Mini-renovation for a friend? (Did I mention I moved 21 times in 14 years and renovated each place ??) -I LOVED IT!! I realised I like buildings still. But I could not manage the politics, the commercials, or the corporate grind anymore.
It had been so long since I had felt a spark toward work (sadly) that I didn’t even know if I was meant to feel anything—or to just roll with it and see what happens.
The Pull of Familiarity and the Job Offer That Almost Changed Everything
Society loves labels, and while I never have, I still notice this inherent need to place myself into some kind of category. I justified it relentlessly. I engaged with people from different disciplines, and I found the dynamics, working styles, and communication completely foreign.
Another challenge was that while I didn’t apply to any jobs at all, I received a few calls. Speaking the same language again felt good. I felt heard again. It was nice to be sarcastic again, to joke around. After all, it was the first environment where I felt like I belonged.
Then an offer came through.
✔ Good pay (which I never get to do anything with anyway, apart from late-night dopamine online shopping).
✔ Stability.
✔ And the crushing anxiety of knowing... nothing would have changed.
The Birth of the 99-Day Rewire
So, what now? Where do I go in the short-to-medium term?
That’s when the 99-Day Rewire was born. It felt right. It felt like something that was entirely mine. It didn’t pigeonhole me into any one category.
The experiment became the structure I needed—a commitment that would close the doors that needed closing and open the ones I couldn’t yet see.
Why This? Why Now?
Because I seek to understand what true freedom and autonomy actually look like.
Because I want to see if one person can generate enough impact to rethink outdated organisational structures that no longer serve. (Yes, ambitious. But change has to start somewhere.)
Because this experiment isn’t about rigidity—it’s about exploration.
There is no fixed outcome. There is only discovery.
What Opened Up When I Let Go
Once I committed deeply, I felt a spark again.
✔ I could finally turn away from the comfort zone without regret.
✔ I could navigate fear and uncertainty without getting stuck.
✔ Daily monitoring created accountability—enough structure without suffocation.
And interestingly enough? The nostalgia of my past work led to an unexpected opportunity—working with a brilliant designer to create beautiful homes for people in a flexible, completely new way.
Would I have considered this before? Probably not.
Would I have dismissed it as "not my thing"? Absolutely.
But openness and honesty with myself made it possible.
Your Action Plan: How to Navigate Limbo and Unexpected Opportunities
💡 Step 1: Notice when your brain clings to the past.
Are you drawn to something because you love it?
Or because it’s familiar and feels safe?
💡 Step 2: Let go of rigid labels.
You don’t need to define yourself so soon.
Experiment first, then label if you need to.
💡 Step 3: Pay attention to what drains you vs. what energises you.
If an opportunity doesn’t spark something, it’s probably not right.
Notice how you feel before, during, and after each experience.
💡 Step 4: Test before committing.
Instead of making a big decision, try small versions of what interests you.
See how you feel in action rather than overthinking.
💡 Step 5: Stay open to the unexpected.
The right path might not be the one you planned.
Make space for opportunities you didn’t see coming.
Final Thoughts
Right now, it seems I have the best of both worlds. I am still figuring out a good schedule and routine and a productivity scale.
BUT…
I can see the connectivity between multiple disciplines—and that’s where I thrive.
Being able to step into any world I want to be in brings a whole new ease to the way I navigate what’s coming next. That is not to say I am not facing challenges.
I will spend this phase of the experiment analysing purpose, different work cultures and what is the most sustainable one against our biological and physiological needs.
Your Turn: What’s Your Next Step?
Have you ever been in limbo, unsure of what’s next? What did you do?
Drop a comment—I’d love to hear your experience!
Let’s rewire together.
